Love and "Surrender"

I have surrendered myself to you,

Do whatever you wish.

Whether you reject or accept,

Adorn me like gold or intoxicate me.

In love, sometimes it's not about getting everything we want. Even when apart, just being in someone's thoughts fulfills more than physical presence ever could. I've always been selfish in love, trying to attain what I desire. When it doesn't happen, I turn to prayer, seeking from the divine. Time passes, and we move away from memories, pondering in solitude, counting our own mistakes. Love, they say, is a disease with no cure.

These thoughts plague me, what have I done wrong? I gave them my all, changed my life for them, even quitting vices. I fell for their family status, unchanged for years. I fell for books they never read. Dreaming of them every moment, nurturing the dream of being together. Someone else tries to fulfill my dreams while I wait for years.

What's the outcome in the end? Everything ends eventually. Some gain, some lose. How can we convey that their presence or absence doesn't matter? How do we express such deep feelings with words? Just as a bird seeks only clouds to quench its thirst, in a world filled with water, someone's absence holds no value. Similarly, in a world filled with someone's absence, no one's presence holds any value. Someone's fragrance, if nestled in breaths, can turn life into an incomplete book. How do we convey that feeling?

I heard time heals wounds, but it's more about getting used to living with them. My journey from selfishness to dedication passed like this. Everyone's incomplete, but in one meeting, I felt they were meant to complete me. Looking into someone's eyes, feeling a void without them. The soul drawn to them, making life's journey a moment's decision. The heart beats faster, the body trembles with a sensation only you can feel. After that feeling, I didn't know how selfish I could be, but I couldn't comprehend distancing myself from that moment. The realization of being distant from them was like losing everything and being on a deserted planet where there's nothing but silence. Even taking one step away from them felt like drowning in honey.

That moment stays in the heart forever, to always be submerged in those eyes, not to think even for a moment. Madness reaches its peak, and only God's refuge remains. The solution lies within. If my love is sincere, it won't be affected by proximity. I don't want to beg for love; I want to surrender, like to God. Surrendering in love ensures love remains, whether close or distant. After surrendering, we become one with love, free from fears, anxieties, anger, and only love remains.

True Love"

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