Last Journey

"There are so many things I wish to tell you, to fulfill every moment that we’ve shared together. Whenever I reminisce about the times spent with you, I lose myself in those moments where it was just you and me, and the whole world seemed to fade away.

You once said that learning to live in your own space is important, and perhaps now I’ve learned that from you. The only difference now is that in the world of my incomplete dreams, there’s me, and there’s you, but every time I try to feel your presence close to me, you still seem far away. These unfulfilled dreams of mine are still imprisoned with all those memories forever.

Your gentle breaths, which sink deeper into my heart with every moment, feel like a sweet melody to me. The slight tremble of your lips brings you closer to me. I’ve captured your face in my eyes for eternity, just gazing at you without blinking. I’ve felt every heartbeat of yours in my chest. Whenever you held my hand, I felt like my world is with you, and I want to be imprisoned in your world forever.

Lying in your arms, running my fingers through your hair, and watching you intently, feeling the continuous love in your words, time seems to stand still. I have so many things to say to you; when we don’t talk, every moment is filled with thoughts of you. It’s been many years since I’ve seen you; much must have changed for you, except for me.

I want to tell you everything that’s always been suppressed in my heart.

Yes, I know I’ve never openly praised you. Your earrings must still get tangled in your hair, and that feigned anger on your face must still suit you, right? That innocence on your face, is it still the same?

I’ve told you, but you always look beautiful in a saree. By now, you must have learned to drape a saree properly, right?

I’ve kept earrings, a watch, and bangles for you, preserved to this day, just for you to wear them once.

Yes, I want to tell you that even being away from you, I’ve traveled those paths many times. The paths kept leading me on, but they could never reach you. Perhaps the paths too have settled there forever, waiting for someone.

This heart yearns to break all bonds and return to your world, but I can’t bear to see you moving away from me.

Today, there is time, there is love, but you are not here. These lonely nights still dream of you through these dried eyes. A heart that beats only with the hope that one day you will meet me, and this last heartbeat will feel you. To embrace you and complete my incomplete world, I want to lose myself in this world forever.

The journey of this life with you ended years ago, but the journey of life still remains. If I couldn’t live this life holding your hand, then at least I can wish to die in your arms.

@Shailam"